WOW, Do I REALLY want to be a Cuckold?

I have had a cuckold fantasy for YEARS. I want the works, wife free to fuck anyone she wants, with me or alone, if I am there I am their servant, fully ready to do anything and everything they ask or think about asking-suck him hard, lick them both while they fuck, clean them both after, service him is she is too tired or out of town. You know, the real pervert stuff (makes my little dick hard just to type it). I am so interested in this happening that I actually paid $47 for an ebook yesterday, Cuckold Coach. It's actually a pretty good book, but I think that it has changed my mind. The point of the book is to teach you methods to encourage your woman to think less of you while still depending on you and loving you as a provider, so she will WANT to fuck other men, yet still be emotionally attached to you.

This is where I have the second thoughts. I am glad that I bought the book. I had a little erection reading and thinking about it for the last 24 hours, but it made me look at the idea a second time.

Right now my wife and I have a cuckold role play. We start to make love and she mentions the (fantasy) man in the room who ultimately starts to have sex with us, well mostly her, but she lets me be involved. I find this incredibly exciting. Shen she starts talking about it, I have a hard time not cumming. It excites her enough that at times I get to eat her cream pie, as if it were his.

I would love that to happen, I would encourage that to happen, but from the book, I would treat her differently enough (you get good instructions) and act submissively enough that she just says, "of course" when you confess your desire to be cucked.

Coming to reality, I would love to do a MFm 3-some. I would love even more for her to call me when she is out of town on business to tell me that her lover has just left her hotel room had his sperm is dripping from her pussy and she wishes that I were there to lick her clean (God, even if it didn't happen and she just told me that it did, I would probably cum in my pants). But, I think that the book has shown me that I reallly don't want to be a full time cuck. I love the idea of being locked in a CB-6000s and let out to have sex with her on weekends as we normally make love. I think that it has made it clear that I don't want to be a full time cuck, I'm sorry to say.

Have any thoughts about your desire to be cucked? About my flagging desire? Write a comment, I will tell you more about the book and its theories. See if its for you, or, like me, it brings you to reality.