How Disappointing-Wife Says No Right at the End ANY SUGGESTOINS?

OK, so most guys know that they will do just about anything sexually, right up until they cum. I'm no different. I ALWAYS want to eat my creampies, until my orgasm begins and the desire is gone. I REALLY have to push myself to go down on my wife's pussy full of my cum. Twice, in our whole marriage did she ever tell me to eat. When she does that, it's easy for me. Last night, she wanted to fuck. Kind of odd for a Thursday night, she is more a once a weeker, and always on the weekends. So I thought, that she might be game for more. She was. She started playing with me, teasing, then started to suck my cock. Every time she would come up for air, it would be something else she would say, all along the lines of, OMG, you cock tastes so good, I really love to suck you while I have this big cock fucking my pussy (well, THAT's a clue, if she is REALLY hot, she always says "cunt"). So, anyway, he (her fantasy guy) cums in her (fantasy remember) and she stops sucking me and rolls over on her back. I slide my cock in between her pussy lips (she loves that more than fucking, OK, it IS better than fucking as my little dick is only 4 1/4" so it works OK in her pussy, but really well between her pussy lips. After several strokes I stop and slide down so I am where I belong with my mouth sucking her pussy. She says, "Oh Yes, taste his cum, lick me clean." Oh MY God, I am going to get a cream pie, GREAT. After a few minutes of that and 3 orgasms on her part I slide back up and work my cock between her pussy lips again. She really likes the feeling, especially when I shoot my cum on her clit. I tell her that I am getting ready, almost there, gonna cum on her clit. She is boiling, right with me, I shoot a HUGE load on her, rest for just a moment. I find that if I wait a few seconds after I cum and before thinking about eating a creampie, I am ready for it again (Try it, it works. For me 30 to 45 seconds and I am ready to eat). She says, "get me a Kleenex please." I don't say a word, but start to slide down again. She has a hand on each side of her pussy, pulling it up and apart, really ready for me, and holding the cum so it doesn't run down on to the bed. I get me face there, and inhale. The smell of my cum and her pussy is overwhelming. Then it happens,she says, "No, just get a Kleenex." I ignore her and stick my tongue in the puddle of cum, again, she says, "NO, just get a Kleenex, don't do that." Danm, so close, in mind and body, yet so far away. ANY SUGGESTIONS?

Still a Wannabe

I am so confused. About my feelings, about my wife's. She runs so hot and cold. Sometimes when we make love she starts with the fantasy of a second man joining us. First watching, then undressing, then fucking her. Fucking her sometimes right through my legs as I am already on top of her, fucking her with my little boy prick.

If I ever start the fantasy or try to embellish on it, she usually gets quite and the fantasy is over. We have been married for almost 25 years. During that time I believe that she has never had sex with anyone but me. I feel sorry for her. I understand that "size doesn't matter" but that is usually said by a woman who doesn't want to hurt their little dicked man's self esteem. Yes, I am an attentive lover: my fingers, my tongue, my tenacity. I was the first person to ever bring her to a second orgasm in a
row, let alone 3, 4 or 5. He only time sh ever coma on my cock is when I am holding it in
my hand and using it to stroke her clit, then cum on it, and, if I am really motivated, back with my tongue on her cummy clit. But I believe that if you are a woman, at some point, don't you say to yourself, "hey, don't I remember that a big cock pumping my pussy feels good?"

So I went to the local adult bookstore and bought a very nice dildo. An 8" cyberskin dildo with balls. I had him at the ready every time that we made love. It took 5 weeks. She brought a fantasy man into the room, I brought my friend "Dick" out to join us. She first asked where I bought him, then said that I must be desperate. She loves to have her breasts fucked ( yes, breasts, she doesn't like the word tits, so I never use it). Well I put some KY on my wife's cleavage and dick fucked her breasts (actually I think he would say tits--he's man enough to call them tits). She went back to blowing me (another favorite passtime of hers) while Dick fucked her tits. I brought him to her hand. She started to jack him off, vigorously. Then brought him to my cock, sucking me while rubbing Dick on my cock. Ultimately, he ended up rubbing his cockhead between her pussy lips and over her clit before trying to penetrate her. It was difficult enter her, so she helped him, sliding him deeply into her, deeper than I have been. After about a minute of fucking, she said that she would rather have me fucking her. Another 15 seconds and she said, can I please have you in me instead? So Dick left and I slid my cock between her pussy lips for 1/2 a minute or so and exploded in ogasm, spraying cum everywhere. Given her "desperate" comment, even though she was laying with her legs spread, my cum covering her pussy and she was making no effort to get up
to clean up, I decided against eating her creampie. Dick went away and we haven't spoken of him since.

What is going on in her head? Should I bring Dick out for more play time? I really want to be her complete submissive cuck, kept in chastity. I am just not brave enough to take the next step with those words, "you must be desperate" still ringing in my ears.
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